I really need to remind myself to do this!! I have spiralled myself into a dark hole. I have been looking back, and the light is at the end of the tunnel, not behind me. I have been saying goodbye to friends and family - which is good - although I have to remember it isn't 'goodbye' (I'll never see you again) goodbye... its 'goodbye' (I won't see you for a while) goodbye. I've been looking at the house and the life I was expecting to have - and mourning the loss of THOSE expectations. I need to focus on new expectations, and the new challenges, adventures and memories I will be blessed with. Its not just me that this is hard on though - and I DO understand that. I have tried to make it easier (not sure how I'm doing with that) and I hope I have.
So to look forward:
I am hoping to see Gary this weekend. His trainer is taking his home time and since he lives in/near Fontana he will be dropping Gary off at the terminal - So one bright light is that I will get to see Gary!! Another bright light is the adventure we will be doing together. The memories we will be making and sharing - the good and the bad... but even the bad, when shared, aren't THAT bad. Looking forward to my daughter and her husband making a home for themselves - and our grandbaby. Seeing what 'their' plans are for the house and property :) Another light is that I will FINALLY be able to see the US. I have wanted to see more of the country for YEARS, now I can. Most of it will be from the interstate, but there will be times when we will be able to 'explore' :) I'm looking forward to trying my hand at taking pictures... not sure how good they will be, but I will have fun trying - LOL!
See - now that I'm concentrating on the forward, and the good parts of the forward journey, I feel better :)