Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Ziploc
As I'm sitting here at work - thinking about eating dinner - I look at the little Ziploc container I'm using and think - I really like these things! So I thought I would pass it along. I have mentioned before that I have a problem with portion control... these really help. I have a lunch box that I fill to bring with me to work - I can fit 4 of these in the box... That is plenty for a 'snack' when I get to work (about 3 pm) and dinner (at about 6 pm) with another 'snack' (about 8-9 pm) before I leave for home. Each container holds 1-1.5 cups worth of food - so even if I pack a slider food (food that slips easily through my stoma) such as cottage cheese or soup, I still can't eat more because I didn't bring more :) Then now have come out with the twist top ones to - so much better for that liquid stuff!! So tonight I brought home made chili (Momma helped me sort the beans - LOL - kept her busy for a while) some pumpkin cheese cake w/SF caramel sauce drizzled on top, some peanut butter sweetened w/splenda and an apple. So only 3 containers tonight - with an apple... Evening is the time I eat the most - so limiting what I bring really helps - at least that's the goal :)
Monday, November 1, 2010
Patience
pa·tience[pey-shuh
ns]
1. the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
Definition provided by Dictionary.com
What a precious commodity that is!! It has been totally used up today... now I am just fatigued, depressed, frustrated... by what you might ask? Oh a number of things... and if I went into detail I would be seriously WHINING - and OH do I really want to!! However I do know this is sort of public here - I am putting it out there - but this is also my 'life' I'm blogging/journaling about... and right now its a very frustrating/stressful life. Yes I do know others have it harder - and yes things could be worse - and no I don't want them to be worse - I DO want them to get better - but some things won't GET better... in a single word - Momma. Other things will take time and waiting - and I don't like waiting - because I would like to know the outcome NOW!! Another thing is computers and programs and stuff I am not that good at - and all the CRAP that goes with them!! Can we say FRUSTRATION here? Still other stuff I pray will get better - but I'm scared that it might just get worse - hence the stress.
During this stress/fatigue/frustration - I would really like to eat myself senseless - so I don't have to feel any of this ... well sort of. I find myself wanting to, but not wanting to.... it's like a vicious circle in my head - go ahead/NO don't/go ahead, you know you want to/NO DON'T - needless to say, I'm not always successful listening to the NO don't voice... sigh... but sometimes I am. I sure hope it gets easier - because right now - its not so easy!!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Absolutely Nothing...
I feel like I got absolutely nothing done today... I did get Momma's laundry done and made lunch and dinner (with enough left over to eat for DAYS) - so I did do 'something' - just not anything really productive, or anything I 'needed' to do... sigh... Kinda nice, but - feeling a tad on the guilty side as well.
Its also Halloween tonight - Ba Humbug - we have no carved pumpkin, candy, porch light is out, not getting dressed up - the only concession I made for an Autumn celebration is the pumpkin cheese cake - and that's because I had a boat load (5# block) of cream cheese in the fridge that HAD to get used some how. I've been that way for a couple years re: the 'Holidays' - I just don't seem to get in the spirit of them. They are just another day - except for Christmas - that one I do recognize is Jesus' birthday - and I will get little presents for family, but that's about it. I don't know when I really enjoyed the trappings of the holidays - not so far out from them that's for sure... they have Christmas stuff in the stores already - how $$ oriented is that!! sigh...
So what to do tomorrow - not sure - I 'need' to do SOMETHING productive though - LOL! There is such a long list of things - its hard to choose just one. Almost like a Lays potato chip, wait that eat only one - anyway - you get the idea :)
Well both Hubby and I are playing on the computers - side by side in the office - at least until I go to bed - LOL! Off to read my Google Reader - makes keeping up on other folk's blogs a lot easier <thumbs up>
Its also Halloween tonight - Ba Humbug - we have no carved pumpkin, candy, porch light is out, not getting dressed up - the only concession I made for an Autumn celebration is the pumpkin cheese cake - and that's because I had a boat load (5# block) of cream cheese in the fridge that HAD to get used some how. I've been that way for a couple years re: the 'Holidays' - I just don't seem to get in the spirit of them. They are just another day - except for Christmas - that one I do recognize is Jesus' birthday - and I will get little presents for family, but that's about it. I don't know when I really enjoyed the trappings of the holidays - not so far out from them that's for sure... they have Christmas stuff in the stores already - how $$ oriented is that!! sigh...
So what to do tomorrow - not sure - I 'need' to do SOMETHING productive though - LOL! There is such a long list of things - its hard to choose just one. Almost like a Lays potato chip, wait that eat only one - anyway - you get the idea :)
Well both Hubby and I are playing on the computers - side by side in the office - at least until I go to bed - LOL! Off to read my Google Reader - makes keeping up on other folk's blogs a lot easier <thumbs up>
Friday, October 29, 2010
Depression and Vitamin Deficiencies
HERE is a link to where I got my info - I also posted it on my WLS links page.
Reading this it makes me wonder if that is what is causing some of my occasional 'depression'. Maybe not, because its not a consistent 'depression', but more cyclical (hormones?) - but they might play a part in it. I've contacted my PCP to see if she could order our labs for us. Our new insurance doesn't recognize WLS - plus its a 'prior' condition - so no coverage - Grrr!! THANK GOD (knocking on anything handy) we haven't had any complications NEEDING a doctor re: our WLS... but that also means no rechecks with our surgeon. I'm not too broken up about that though - we haven't see 'her' since our one week post op. Its always been someone else in her office - its just the labs really - so if I can get the request from the PCP (and not referencing that its for WLS lab check up) that would be WONDERFUL!!
Reading this it makes me wonder if that is what is causing some of my occasional 'depression'. Maybe not, because its not a consistent 'depression', but more cyclical (hormones?) - but they might play a part in it. I've contacted my PCP to see if she could order our labs for us. Our new insurance doesn't recognize WLS - plus its a 'prior' condition - so no coverage - Grrr!! THANK GOD (knocking on anything handy) we haven't had any complications NEEDING a doctor re: our WLS... but that also means no rechecks with our surgeon. I'm not too broken up about that though - we haven't see 'her' since our one week post op. Its always been someone else in her office - its just the labs really - so if I can get the request from the PCP (and not referencing that its for WLS lab check up) that would be WONDERFUL!!
WOW - Shocker!!
Wow - shocker - there are good people in the world!! OK, so not too much of a shock there - but here is the story:
I made a sale of several cases of RTD protein. A check was written and I deposited it via on-line scanner (neat thing - don't even have to leave home!! Wish I had remembered that later..) I didn't notice until reconciling my account that the full handwritten amount wasn't written down, so the check didn't clear. Standard practice - no problem except that I was going to use that $$ to order more product. Basically right now - when I sell anything - I have to turn around and order what I just sold. I just don't/didn't have the capitol to put into a 'stock' of merchandise for it to just sit there. (although some has - I guessed wrong on what would sell - but hey I'm buying it from myself :) Now to return to the story - - - I contacted the person and they sent out a replacement check right away. (Another example of great people) Well I didn't deposit it from home like the other - I had it in my wallet to deposit later at the bank (I wanted it to be available right away - no pending) That was last Sunday - when Lynn and Morgan watched my MIL so Gary and I could get away for the day. Well I decided I would deposit it when we got back - so I still had it in my wallet when we visited the wharf in SF... well when I took my wallet out to pay for the fried calamari - you got it - I lost the check!! It was windy and there it went... GRRR!! I was SO ticked at myself... it was $200+ and that is a HUGE chunk of change for me right now. So I called the person that sent the check - told them my story - apologising profusely for losing the check and could you please put a stop payment on it and take what ever the bank charges and a touch more out for all this hassle and send me a new one. Well I haven't recieved that 'new one' yet, but what did I get in the mail today??? The check that I lost!! WOW!! It was in an emvelope post marked in Oakland (tourist maybe? I seriously doubt it floated/flew to Oakland) with no return address. So I can't even sent a THANK YOU!! I am so impressed that someone would take the time to mail the check back to me... how cool is that? Now I have a call out to the original check writer with the question - did you stop payment on that last check?? Oh my - what a comedy of errors, but WOW - THANK YOU to whom ever it was that mailed it back to me!!
I made a sale of several cases of RTD protein. A check was written and I deposited it via on-line scanner (neat thing - don't even have to leave home!! Wish I had remembered that later..) I didn't notice until reconciling my account that the full handwritten amount wasn't written down, so the check didn't clear. Standard practice - no problem except that I was going to use that $$ to order more product. Basically right now - when I sell anything - I have to turn around and order what I just sold. I just don't/didn't have the capitol to put into a 'stock' of merchandise for it to just sit there. (although some has - I guessed wrong on what would sell - but hey I'm buying it from myself :) Now to return to the story - - - I contacted the person and they sent out a replacement check right away. (Another example of great people) Well I didn't deposit it from home like the other - I had it in my wallet to deposit later at the bank (I wanted it to be available right away - no pending) That was last Sunday - when Lynn and Morgan watched my MIL so Gary and I could get away for the day. Well I decided I would deposit it when we got back - so I still had it in my wallet when we visited the wharf in SF... well when I took my wallet out to pay for the fried calamari - you got it - I lost the check!! It was windy and there it went... GRRR!! I was SO ticked at myself... it was $200+ and that is a HUGE chunk of change for me right now. So I called the person that sent the check - told them my story - apologising profusely for losing the check and could you please put a stop payment on it and take what ever the bank charges and a touch more out for all this hassle and send me a new one. Well I haven't recieved that 'new one' yet, but what did I get in the mail today??? The check that I lost!! WOW!! It was in an emvelope post marked in Oakland (tourist maybe? I seriously doubt it floated/flew to Oakland) with no return address. So I can't even sent a THANK YOU!! I am so impressed that someone would take the time to mail the check back to me... how cool is that? Now I have a call out to the original check writer with the question - did you stop payment on that last check?? Oh my - what a comedy of errors, but WOW - THANK YOU to whom ever it was that mailed it back to me!!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Unconscious Munchies
Why is it I sit at the desk at work - I know I'm not 'hungry' - I have a drink (ice tea) in front of me - yet I feel the need to grab for my lunch box and find something SOLID. I know I can't have anything to drink after eating, and I know I haven't had enough fluid this morning, so why to I reach for it... mmmm... habit? Yeah - that could be one of the reasons. My 'work' is in a 12x12 room watching a little one (been with him for 11+ years - not quite so little any more :) and besides reading (and now computer stuff) and the obligatory paperwork, there isn't too much to do. So I ate. Sedentary job + unconsciously shoveling food in my mouth = morbidly obese ... yep that WAS me. I don't want to be able to say that IS me, so instead I'm 'blogging' about it - LOL! Why not - I've been trying to think about what and where I want this 'blog' to go... I don't know that it will 'GO' anywhere. I'm going to take a comment that was written to heart and just basically make this a 'journal' of sorts. A place to put thoughts and musings - hence the name I guess "Scattered Thoughts". There won't be any particular focus - at least not intentionally - and I will try not to whine too much - LOL! That won't be easy - it seems like I want to 'vent' and it comes out as a whine.
One thing I haven't been doing recently is visiting the forums like I use to. When I first thought about WLS, I started looking into the forums. I found one (it was listed on a paper handed out my my surgeon's office) and it was (and still is) confusing to navigate around and keep track of posts and messages. Its a popular forum though and there are LOTS of info... it didn't seem to have any moderators though - there was some bashing that I read and that kinda turned me off from them... I found another one that I could navigate around in and there was a way to track what I posted and where I posted and would even let me know about replies... OK - I liked that one... however there was a distinct focus on it - and I can understand why - it is sponsored by a business. The info was good though - and there are some really good folks there. That's where I stayed for quite a while. I got to know the folks cyber wise and even hosted a couple 'gathers' so we could meet in person. Then I started branching out - I found another forum that had just as good information - it wasn't slanted toward 'the business' - and wasn't as narrow in their out look. I also found one that was very small - (not a bunch of active members) - and that was nice as well.
So where is this story going?? I'm not really sure... just something I've noticed. I have been spending much more time on FaceBook... supporting and reading there than any of the forums. I go back now to read on the forums - but I almost feel disconnected from them. There are so many new people - and I - I don't know - just don't feel like 'talking' on them. I should though - I have a business that I'm trying to build. To do that I need to 'network'... I just don't want'ta **said in a whiny voice** Maybe because I was looking at it as work - instead of just enjoying giving and receiving the support. Almost like I was starting to look at this 'blog' - work - and work is a four letter word. Soooo I think I will quit beating myself up about not being on the forums like I use to - and start just 'enjoying' what ever time I do spend on them... maybe post... maybe not... but stop making it into a job.
Well I distracted myself away from the 'munchies' so that goal has been achieved - LOL - now to go get another glass of iced tea...
One thing I haven't been doing recently is visiting the forums like I use to. When I first thought about WLS, I started looking into the forums. I found one (it was listed on a paper handed out my my surgeon's office) and it was (and still is) confusing to navigate around and keep track of posts and messages. Its a popular forum though and there are LOTS of info... it didn't seem to have any moderators though - there was some bashing that I read and that kinda turned me off from them... I found another one that I could navigate around in and there was a way to track what I posted and where I posted and would even let me know about replies... OK - I liked that one... however there was a distinct focus on it - and I can understand why - it is sponsored by a business. The info was good though - and there are some really good folks there. That's where I stayed for quite a while. I got to know the folks cyber wise and even hosted a couple 'gathers' so we could meet in person. Then I started branching out - I found another forum that had just as good information - it wasn't slanted toward 'the business' - and wasn't as narrow in their out look. I also found one that was very small - (not a bunch of active members) - and that was nice as well.
So where is this story going?? I'm not really sure... just something I've noticed. I have been spending much more time on FaceBook... supporting and reading there than any of the forums. I go back now to read on the forums - but I almost feel disconnected from them. There are so many new people - and I - I don't know - just don't feel like 'talking' on them. I should though - I have a business that I'm trying to build. To do that I need to 'network'... I just don't want'ta **said in a whiny voice** Maybe because I was looking at it as work - instead of just enjoying giving and receiving the support. Almost like I was starting to look at this 'blog' - work - and work is a four letter word. Soooo I think I will quit beating myself up about not being on the forums like I use to - and start just 'enjoying' what ever time I do spend on them... maybe post... maybe not... but stop making it into a job.
Well I distracted myself away from the 'munchies' so that goal has been achieved - LOL - now to go get another glass of iced tea...
Mustard...
This was sent to me via e-mail - yeah one of 'those' pass along because they are funny jokes... well this one had both Gary and I rolling...
Mustard
I Love Mustard. (This is a true story. If you have children you will probably relate to this father).
I Love Mustard. (This is a true story. If you have children you will probably relate to this father).
As ham sandwiches go, it was perfection: a thick slab of ham on a fresh bun with crisp lettuce and plenty of expensive, light brown, Gourmet Mustard.
The corners of my jaw aching in anticipation, I carried it to the table in our backyard, picked it up with both hands, but was stopped by my wife suddenly at my side.
Here, hold Johnny (our six-week-old son) while I get my sandwich,' she said.
I had him balanced between my left elbow and shoulder and was reaching again for the ham sandwich when I noticed a streak of mustard on my fingers..
I love mustard.
I had no napkin.
I licked it off.
It was not mustard.
No man ever put a baby down faster.
It was the first and only time I have sprinted with my
tongue protruding out.
With a washcloth in each hand, I did the sort of routine
shoeshine boys do, only I did it on my tongue.
Later, after she stopped crying from laughing so hard, my
wife Said, 'Now you know why they call that fancy mustard
Poupon.''
The corners of my jaw aching in anticipation, I carried it to the table in our backyard, picked it up with both hands, but was stopped by my wife suddenly at my side.
Here, hold Johnny (our six-week-old son) while I get my sandwich,' she said.
I had him balanced between my left elbow and shoulder and was reaching again for the ham sandwich when I noticed a streak of mustard on my fingers..
I love mustard.
I had no napkin.
I licked it off.
It was not mustard.
No man ever put a baby down faster.
It was the first and only time I have sprinted with my
tongue protruding out.
With a washcloth in each hand, I did the sort of routine
shoeshine boys do, only I did it on my tongue.
Later, after she stopped crying from laughing so hard, my
wife Said, 'Now you know why they call that fancy mustard
Poupon.''
When you stop laughing, pass it on.
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