Blurred...

The days all blurr together out here... there is a steady routine of wake up, drive, try to work on things, eat a meal, sleep, wake up and drive - and the cycle continues... then there is the 'wait' time for pick ups or deliveries - those times we tend to 'relax'... and so no real 'work' gets done.  However there is so much I feel like I 'should' be doing... I know, it's towards the end of the month, and this is when I 'cycle' around my well - LOL! So I'm blogging instead :)

We have been running pretty well... back and forth, back and forth... which is a good thing.  I'm really hoping this next settlement will look decent.  The last 'home time' REALLY cut a chunk out of us. 

So the tasks I'm trying to deal with are:

Health insurance - as Lease Ops we are 'self employed' so no company insurance.  We do have 'Cobra' right now, so we are under a 'qualified' insurance - but we couldn't get individual insurance right of the bat because of our 'major surgeries' in April of 2009 - we have to wait for the 3 years after - otherwise there would be 'pre-existing' conditions - sigh - so its time to start looking, because Cobra is only good for 16 months...

Momma - I need to follow up with Medi-Cal - and make sure she will be covered... how to do THAT long distance is going to be fun.

The house - need to figure out what we are going to do with the house... the kids are looking for their own place (and that is a good thing).  However we will need to think of maintainance, cost and mail - etc.

Weekly bookkeeping of truck driving - balancing the settlements, making sure we get paid for everything.

Regular monthly bill paying...

So with this going around in my head, I tend to procrastinate and let things build and build until it looks like the Great Wall of China in front of me.  What I need to do is put my big girl panties on and just DO IT!

Well time to get off line - need to fix dinner then sleep - so I can wake up to drive....

Accomplished ...

Well some what anyway... Rather proud of this 50 year old broad!! Cleaned out the front gutters... Mowed the front lawn... Dishes done... Played with my grand son... Vacuumed... Felt good to be physically active.

Lynn also made an awesome dinner... Salmon wrapped in parchment paper with seasonings, lemon, zucchini and onion. First course was a banana nut squash soup. She added rosemary as seasoning and that turned out really well! She is really doing well with the cooking.

Gary worked almost all day on taxes... Momma's are done and ours are almost there... Good news is we put enough aside!! Woo Hoo!!

Hoping to finish up with Momma's paperwork tomorrow, then pack up the truck Tuesday and head off on Wednesday... Need to make up some miles so our plan will be to push our clock ... Then take a 34 ... Then push some more!

So even with stress, some conflict and tears... This home time is doing ok...

Emotions...

This has been such a hard week... in more ways than one and on so many different fronts. Regrets and might have beens and should have dones... what would have happened if... all those questions on so many different levels.

I think we found a place for Momma - and wish we would have found it BEFORE she went to a residential care place - but we didn't have the insurance or $$ to do that... again those might haves, and should haves...

Then of course there is the $$ issues... boy could I whine about that right now! Then to top it off there are things that I just can't get into in a public forum... things that hurt so much there aren't words anyways...

One thing I do know though is my family is VERY dear to me... there are going to be tough times ahead - requesting any and all prayers that life will turn out the way God wants it to... and that it won't hurt too much more than it does right now!